I couldn’t let this day pass without noting it here. People often talk about where they want to be a year, two years, ten years down the road. Ten years ago today I was looking at my life, thinking just that, except I didn’t like what I saw. I decided I had to make a change. That to this day was the single most difficult and painful decision of my life. But it was the right one, of that I have no doubt. When I looked at my life and thought about where I wanted to be ten years down the road, I didn’t quite envision where I am today, but I have done and experienced much more than I imagined. I guess timing and meeting the right person really is everything. Casey, I hope you have forgiven me for hurting you. I hope you have found out who you are and met someone who can love you as you deserve to be loved. As for me I have everything I could ever want, a man who understands me and loves me anyways, and the best sons in the world. John, Aidan & Rowan; you guys are my world. I love ya’ll so much. It’s hard to believe that I didn’t have any of you all 10 years ago.
September 15 September 15, 2009
Wondering when I’ll be able to let this day will go by without remembering.
Not # 1 August 1, 2009
I’m so sick of competition, of the “do what ever it takes” mentality.
I may be the only person in the world who feels this way, it seems so when I try to explain it to others.
I always strive to do my best, I want those on my metaphoric teams to do well. But I’m not a failure if someone eles does well or even better than I do. Just as I am not a winner when I happen to achieve more than they do.
I understand that every company & every person must seek to improve. I just don’t think that self serving competition that belittles others is the best way to go about it.
I guess I’m still just a freak …
I’d like to shoot the person who started the rumor that online courses are fast, convenient and easy …. June 5, 2008
I took this online SAE renewal course and it is the slowest thing since crippled turtles!
Its like sitting very still and watching a single ant cross 100 ft, over and over again
Ugh … next time I’ll just take a real class
New Job Joy! June 5, 2008
This calls for a blog post!
I got a call for a job interview about 2 weeks ago off of my Moster.com resume (which I have kept up and periodically updated for 2+ years now (thank you Casey for teaching me to always be looking)). I had recently revised it, so I guess that helped. Anyways, I got this call and when in to the company’s office (I don’t want to revel any names online, since 1) I haven’t started it yet, and 2) don’t know any of their company policies yet) 2 days later.
I felt I interviewed well at the time, but after the fact I nerves got me and I figured I must have bombed it. Then I got a call asking be to come work with them. I am so excited, from what I can see so far, this company is everything the current company I am at its not is so many ways.
One it is actually growing, and is profitable. Two it is tech savvy and very modern. Three the other people in the office are age-wise closer to being my peers (late 20s to mid 40s) versus the current group that is late 30s to late 50s (some probably older, but I won’t presume). It has been a long time since i have worked with people close to my age, and it doesn’t seem like a big deal, but it really can be.
The other exciting part a about it is I will be actually involved in transactions again, dealing with actual real estate, rather than being totally on the sidelines watching and filing. Granted, I will not be selling, listing, or prospecting, but I will be handling the inner workings and marketing and much more I am sure. One day I hope to go back to selling, but right now its not practical for me. I need a steady income, and some structure. But in this company there is real room to grow and move around, possibly into selling if that’s what I want later.
Wish me luck!
So I have my notice in and one week left to work out my old job (which has already approached me about working every other weekend to help them stay caught up). We announced my resignation at today’s office meeting. The next week is going to be mad with trying to tie loose ends, and train relief workers, create new manuals all the things I do.
Right now at home I am taking my online sae course to renew my license, and will be getting finger printed tomorrow. I cant wait!
In other news – we’ll be leaving in 2 weeks for my granny’s 90th birthday party! It should be a really big event, and I wish I could stay longer, and would have except for that will be the week I start the new job.
The kids last day of school is today and its a little sad because 3 of Rowan’s teachers (1primary teacher, 1 aid and 1 speech teacher) will all be gone next year. Nothing I can do or buy could show these special ladies how much what they have done has meant to us. Next year will be lonely w/o them.
I am missing my Francesca today, this week etc … wishing I had her her to celebrate ………….
What a long week, month … whatever May 5, 2008
Occasionally I figure I aught to write down whats going on in my life since I do have a blog and all …. lol
My brother moved back to Houston and is living in my garage, I guess its a good thing I have a garage. He has been a lot of fun to have around, more actually than I expected. To tell the truth when he last left Houston he was still in that kinda angst teenager mode. I loved him, but we’d spat occasionally. Since I think we have both learned to curb out tongues and give each other space and the right to opinions different from our own. Anyways I think we have become closer than we ever have before since he moved back.
Since he’s been here he has diligently been looking for work and pining for a car. For now we are putting thoughts of a car on hold till he can get some debt paid down, but he has started a job making a buck fifty less than me, and more hours pushing carts a Home Depot. He started Thursday before last, and 6 days into it he because ill. He had been complaining of a headache for a few days, and chills. I figured a cold, flu bug thing. Finally though he came home early sick and I took him to the doctors. After looking him over she pulled me aside and said she didn’t want to scare us but he needed to go to the ER and have them run some tests on him. She thought it might be bacterial meningitis.
We went in and he ended up being admitted for 4 days. They ran all kinds of tests, CT brain scans, xrays of his lungs spine, spinal tap, blood work out the yin yang. They hooked him up to tons of fluids (severely dehydrated), and antibiotics. We saw a infectious disease doctor, all kinds of stuff. After all was said and done, they decided it was viral meningitis, because the bacterial meningitis, mono, step and aids test all came back negative. He was discharged and released for work. The hospital bill is astronomical and we were still left feeling vaguely unsatisfied with the treatment and the answers.
One thing I wonder is why they did an AIDS test. The first doctor at the hospital to look at him did the spinal tap. There was a weird moment where he looked at his back (where he had gotten a tattoo of a start that was filled with a rainbow) and then he asked him about the tattoo. It was right on the spot they were doing the tap. At one point before he did it the doctor jumped up with out saying anything and left the room. He came back and after the fact the nurse asked him why he left so suddenly without saying anything. He said he had just remembered he need to help someone with a chart. It sounded like bullshit to me. We saw that doctor briefly one or two more times before we were moved to the room from the ER.
Then as we asking the primary doctor he had gotten on the new floor question before he was to be discharged it came out that they had tested for AIDS. All we had been told was that everything came up clear. So I asked what exactly did you test for, He told me bacterial meningitis, mono, step and some other things. I asked what else. Then he said AIDS. I wish I had asked why now. I don’t recall it ever being mentioned previously or that we gave any consent to do so. Maybe it was just a precaution that always do, but the way it was handled left a bad taste in my mouth. Just the way he was reluctant to tell us that they had tested for it.
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